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Who I Am at My Core: A Deep Reflection on Calling, Creativity, and Ministry

July 12, 20255 min read

A Portrait of Me — As Revealed Through the Work I’ve Done

A few days ago, I asked ChatGPT:

“With all the data you’ve collected about me, tell me who I am at my core — and don’t sugarcoat your response.”

I expected it to be good because I just read a friend of mine's results that she shared on Facebook. But, this got me in the gut and all the feels.

Instead of some insightful truths, what I received was a mirror — held up to me like God was waiting for a chance for an open mind and ear to tell me about myself. It was loaded, yet full of grace. What came back wasn’t just a list of characteristics. It was a spiritual excavation of my calling, my wiring, and my work. And I have to admit… it left me feeling seen, called out, affirmed, and convicted.

What follows is a breakdown of what was reflected back to me — and why I believe these insights are worth sharing.


💬 Where did this come from?

The insight wasn’t magic. It came from months of content — not just casual prompts, but real work I’ve submitted over time that reflects who I am, what I carry, and the call I continue to live into. Specifically:

  • Drafts of professional bios for leadership and ministry contexts

  • Edits to my book-in-progress, Jesus. Now What? (It's actually out already in super raw/rough form, but I am re-writing the whole thing with loads of edits and refinements.)

  • Creative work, including event designs, community building, and online course planning

  • Reflections on spiritual leadership, motherhood, and servant ministry

  • Explorations of my CliftonStrengths, resume development, and sermon writing

Every prompt, every reflection, every bit of written content added layers to the portrait. And when I asked, “Who am I at my core?” the tool didn’t just look at what I said — it synthesized what I showed.


🧭 Who I Am at My Core — The Full Breakdown

Each point carries both truth and tension — both a calling and a cost.


1. I am a mission-driven, intentional leader.

I don’t lead to be seen. I lead because there’s work that must be done.

  • I take initiative where others hesitate.

  • I value integrity over visibility.

  • I often overfunction to fill the gap when others underfunction.


2. I live in the tension of grace and accountability.

I hold space for growth, but I don’t tolerate avoidance.

  • I crave honest, direct communication.

  • I help others become their best selves.

  • My clarity can make others uncomfortable — but I won’t shrink back.


3. I care deeply but often feel unseen.

I pour out generously — emotionally, spiritually, creatively.

  • I uplift and support others.

  • I rarely receive the same level of care unless I name that need.

  • I’m learning not to disappear in the process of serving.


4. I build systems for freedom, not control.

I create infrastructure that allows others to thrive.

  • I design events, communities, and spiritual rhythms that foster transformation.

  • I do the invisible labor — and often don’t pause to acknowledge it.

  • I believe structure should be liberating, not limiting.


5. I embody a faith that’s been tested.

I’ve met God in the wilderness, not just in the sanctuary.

  • My spiritual leadership is grounded and credible.

  • I don’t perform belief — I live it.

  • I often soften my story to protect others’ comfort or my professional image.


6. I refuse to compartmentalize.

Mother. Minister. Artist. Advocate. Strategist. All of me belongs.

  • I bring my whole self into every space.

  • I don’t check parts of me at the door to make others feel at ease.

  • I challenge the false narrative that says I must be “either/or.”


7. I carry too much sometimes.

Not because I want to — but because I can, and someone needs to.

  • My standards are high.

  • I hold things together that would fall apart otherwise.

  • Burnout is always knocking if I don’t protect my rest.


8. I am becoming — not just producing.

Even while I lead others, I’m being formed.

  • I’m evolving, refining, deepening.

  • I’m not just building programs — I’m letting God build me.

  • I need space to witness my own growth with tenderness and courage.


✨ Final Reflection

This wasn’t an exercise in ego. It was an exercise in honesty.

When we do the kind of reflective, generative work I’ve done — writing, teaching, leading, designing — we leave breadcrumbs of who we truly are. Those patterns, if we’re willing to look, form a picture. A pattern of truth. I know some find it dangerous and risky or even irresponsible to use AI so much. Yet, all of my writing that I feed it to help me present what I have to say more clearly seems to have paid off with just this one prompt and response in a way that I have found deeply worth it.

For me, this exercise served as confirmation that I’m living into the very things I hope to model for others: clarity, creativity, conviction, and calling. (And, kind neat that it's 4 C's right?!?)

This blog post is both a mirror and a milestone. And maybe, just maybe, it will prompt you to ask the same bold question I did:

“Who am I at my core?”

Because I promise — the answer is already showing up in your work, your words, and your witness.

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